go with the flow

I love being in the place where the Lord is speaking so much into my heart that i couldn't say one thing that could express even in the slighted what He's doing. Does that make sense? And i'm best with words...maybe not saying them..but writing them down. When the Lord has me speachless..it's a good thing :)

I'm so sure that moving to colorado has been one of those GREAT decisions. Where you KNOW that you KNOW that you're where the Lord wants you...He's so much been working in different areas of my life..and it's not all a peice of cake..actually...most of it has been ridiculously hard. Such a huge emtional rollercoaster of ups and downs. I think i need this move to break away from being underneath authority...authority meaning living under my parents rules...or under rules of an organization to begin to know my identity apart from who i am with, and what i am doing. On my own, i am growing in my reltionaship with the Lord.

So i'm still church hunting. I have gone back and forth between cornerstone and city on the Hill..and this past week i tried highway community...david crowder's brothers church..it's really small, and just started 6 months ago and i think that's amazing. I enjoyed it..i enjoyed the sermon, and i enjoyed the worship! There are not many people but EVERYONE is young. I think i'll keep trying it out and praying about it and see what the Lord wants.

Ultimately the Lord is telling to stop planning my life. So right now i'm living the "go with the flow" method of life and i love it. Freedom is fantastic. Just moving with Jesus and listening for His voice to tell me what's next.

He's good. So good.

Miss my friends from florida mucho...and my family mucho mucho.

:)

"Just be with me"

So it's been a crazy month so far. I moved into my new place and i LOVE it. It's beautiful, and my roommates are great. But moving in has been such a challenge financially. Mostly, because i just started my job a couple weeks ago so i haven't yet gotten a full paycheck....and then there's been several other things that have just been going on...overdraws...credit cards screwing up..one thing after another. But things seem to be moving upward now..God is faithful always.

I just found out about 4 days ago that i am not going to school again this semester..which at first was super super frustrating. Basically fasfa just now got back to me about financial aid, and approved me for a loan...of which wasn't enough to go to school full time, and the type of loan it was, wasn't worth going part time. And since classes start in a week i didn't have to time to apply for anymore, get my stuff transferred over etc etc...crazy and ridiculous but obviously the Lord has other ideas..once again. So when deciding if i should just go part time with the loan...i was praying that the Lord would speak clearly to me, bc i've been dealing with this the last few semesters..and the next day more then once it was brought up..in sermons..in conversation...that it's not about my accomplishments, or when i get my degree...if at all...Just to BE with Him. Which is super freeing...just to be able to move with Him, despite what the world thinks i should be doing. I do think i'll go to school, perhaps next semester...i will be applying for scholarships and such this fall and preparing for it...but if He closes the door again..so be it. Living a life freely in the will of God is much better then a nursing degree or any acheivement of the sort if it's not what He wants me to have.

I'm working for crocs in the mall and i like it. still babysitting quite a bit...and just settling into my beautiful new home. I love it in Colorado...i do feel i made the right decision moving here 5 1/2 months ago!