"Just be with me"

So it's been a crazy month so far. I moved into my new place and i LOVE it. It's beautiful, and my roommates are great. But moving in has been such a challenge financially. Mostly, because i just started my job a couple weeks ago so i haven't yet gotten a full paycheck....and then there's been several other things that have just been going on...overdraws...credit cards screwing up..one thing after another. But things seem to be moving upward now..God is faithful always.

I just found out about 4 days ago that i am not going to school again this semester..which at first was super super frustrating. Basically fasfa just now got back to me about financial aid, and approved me for a loan...of which wasn't enough to go to school full time, and the type of loan it was, wasn't worth going part time. And since classes start in a week i didn't have to time to apply for anymore, get my stuff transferred over etc etc...crazy and ridiculous but obviously the Lord has other ideas..once again. So when deciding if i should just go part time with the loan...i was praying that the Lord would speak clearly to me, bc i've been dealing with this the last few semesters..and the next day more then once it was brought up..in sermons..in conversation...that it's not about my accomplishments, or when i get my degree...if at all...Just to BE with Him. Which is super freeing...just to be able to move with Him, despite what the world thinks i should be doing. I do think i'll go to school, perhaps next semester...i will be applying for scholarships and such this fall and preparing for it...but if He closes the door again..so be it. Living a life freely in the will of God is much better then a nursing degree or any acheivement of the sort if it's not what He wants me to have.

I'm working for crocs in the mall and i like it. still babysitting quite a bit...and just settling into my beautiful new home. I love it in Colorado...i do feel i made the right decision moving here 5 1/2 months ago!